Flying Ideas.

I tend to think, formulate, and relate ideas in a very odd way.

Well, two things can proceed whenever my ideas go out-of-line:

1. Blathering. Due to uncontrolled popping of ideas, I utter and utter and utter and utter non-stop thoughts that are unrelated.

2. Silence and/or Mental block. Sometimes, the abounding-yet-muddled-ideas in my brain just paralyze me to talk.

Whenever I converse with people, worry automatically blows in because I might not be able to construct and express the things that I really wanted to say. And there’s this fear that other people might perceive me as weird or abnormal person.

A friend of mine taught me to always bring a notebook and a pen to jot down relevant things. Another friend told me to just speak up if there’s a chance.

A week ago, during my quiet time, God spoke to me through this verse:

Luke 21: 14-15 “But make up your mind not to worry… I will give you words and wisdom...”

I am really claiming this verse! Now, through God’s grace, I am already on the process of knocking over my flying ideas. :)

When you talk to God and when God talks to you...

I really enjoyed our Training for Victory Class for today.. It was such a blast! I was able to make new friends, learned new things and most importantly, I was able to know God more. I was really blown away by our discussion about God’s Word and Prayer. I just wanna share the top 3 things that really pounded me bigtime..

1. As believers, reading the Word and Praying are not obligations. They are privileges.

If we think of reading the Bible and praying as mere obligations or responsibilities, we will surely end up exhausted and not savoring our relationship with Him at all. May we always be reminded that everytime God talks to us and everytime we talk to God, it is a privilege. Why? Simply because we are talking to God, the Creator of the heavens and the earth.

2. Spending time/ Quiet time with God is a whole-day basis.

Yes, it is substantial for us to set a specific time to meet with God in a day but talking to Him should not only happen once a day. If Pres.Obama gives you the access to call or text Him anytime of the day, will you not grab the chance? You will, right? : ) My point is that the God of the Universe has already given us the access to talk to Him whenever and wherever we want and may we desire to spend each second of our lives with Him because He is our loving Father and we are His children.

3. The written word should lead us to the Living Word.

The goal of reading the Bible is not to accomplish a book or just to have information or knowledge about church history or bible characters. The purpose of the Bible is for us to have a deeper and closer relationship with God, the Living Word. The more we get to know Him, the more that we get astonished by who He is in our lives.

“ The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.” John 1:14

Let’s Kiss Pessimism Goodbye

When you feel lost..

When the pain seems irreversible..

When your heart feels like an empty vacuum..

When relationships remain unrestored..

When a problem gets bigger..

When your burden gets heavier..

When sick and hurting people continue to suffer..

When your prayer seems unheard..

When dreams are still unreachable..

When love doesn’t prevail..

When you feel rejected and isolated..

When your loved ones don’t understand you..

When people give the impression of being selfish and insensitive..

When life seems so hopeless..

..Don’t dare feel defeated and depressed. Remain faithful. Don’t dwell too much on the negative aspects of your life. Leave behind all your worries, sadness and losses in life and focus on the bright and wonderful future you have with God. Stay out of your own little pessimistic world and start believing that everything will turn around. Remember that our thought affects our attitude. Our attitude affects our actions. Moreover, our action affects our future. It’s like a chain reaction. So dare to unpack all those negative thoughts and allow Him to replace it with new, refreshing, motivating and beautiful things. Respond optimistically even though pessimism is trying to invade your mind. Nothing and no one can ever defeat you. Find strength in Him. Find joy in Him. Find hope in Him. If we change our thinking, God will change our lives.

“ Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life which God has promised to those who believe in Him.”

-- James 1:12

FAITHFUL

I’m waiting

for the day of victory.

I’m waiting

for my shining moment.

I’m waiting for You.

And I completely surrender everything.

I trust your perfect time.

I know it will pass by.

And while I’m waiting,

I will serve you.

I will wait with a joyful heart.

I will wait with nothing but my love for You.

August 27, 2009

WARNING: This i-don’t-know-whether-its-a-poem-or-not isn’t encouraging.

freefall

I heard her footsteps

She was walking closer to the furthest part

Little by little, step by step and nearer to her downfall

She could feel it

And she really liked the feeling

As if anyone couldn’t resist her

The roof’s corner was hard to believe

All she could see was a translucent sky w/c never gave her the light

Where she stood was a perfect place to cause her non-existence

Inexplicably incomparable

Without cogitation,

She made her final move while having the last air taken into her lungs

Gravity started pulling her down from the top

Wind started to touch her inscrutable face

The air tried to hinder but it just couldn’t

Until one final blow ended the fluttering

Her hands were cold

Her cheeks were pale

Her blood formed a halo around her head

Now, it’s just her own piece of heaven

And no one could ever take it away

For her, it was a long sweet loss

It was the beginning of the end

..Of her pain

..Of the bitterness

..Of all the agony

Then she bid goodbye to the world of solitude

August 25, 2009

big difference

I was once lost.

I was nowhere in the dark,

trying to conceal myself.

I was drowning.. submersed in sins.

I thought no one could ever save me.

I died... almost.

But now, I am found.

All I see is the Light,

which directs me into the open.

I am in deep regret.. feeling guilty for my wrongdoings.

Thankfully, Someone rescued me.

I was born... again.

September 1, 2009

a poem in the middle of my review

This is my heart's desire

To glorify your Name

To stand for my generation

And to shout to the ends of the world

How great are your works

How awesome are your words

It is for You that I live

It is You who make me live

When adversities are trying to weaken me

It is You who give me the strength

When problems seem to confuse me

It is You who bless me with wisdom

When frustrations tear me apart

It is You who make me whole

Oh, Lord, Do I deserve this?

Do I deserve this kind of love?

I’m nothing but an imperfect sinful human

Who use to hurt You and break Your heart

Do I still deserve You?

Endless gratitude and praise to You, Oh Lord.

Your love is amazing.

Beautiful.

Fantastic.

Abba Father,

Never ever let me go.