You are God's Workmanship

Workmanship means "a work in process".. His word tells us that you are not yet a finished product. He is continually molding you into someone He wants you to be. The key to achieve success is not to be discouraged with the past or present happenings in your life. Believe it or not, He is already moving you toward the greater and unbelievable things.

When you are tempted to be discouraged, always remember that tomorrow is getting better and brighter. Always think about His promises. Hold on to them. You may think that you've got a long long way to go but looking back, you'll realize how far you've already come. You may not achieve everything you want and you may not be everything that you want but you can still be thankful to Him because you are not the person you used to be.

Today, nothing is going to put you down because your hope is in God, the Ultimate and Almighty Creator of All.

apollo.

Galak.
Pagibig.
Pagasa.

Umasa..
nang umasa..
nang umasa..
sa wala..

Luha.
Sakit.
Kabiguan.

KAMATAYAN???

paranoid.

im standing alone..

behind the shadow of darkness..

i don’t wanna go anywhere..

im afraid..

afraid that i might get caught by an unknown entity..

i can’t see the bright lights shining on me..

i want to disappear..

im slowly dyin’..

en bon.

Oh, God, i am going nowhere,

standing still in the shadow of darkness,

I wanna scream to conceal the silence that is slowly consuming me.

I wanna cry to release all the sentiments inside.

Attempting to fight alone seems so futile.

Pretending to be tough makes me weak, really weak.

Everything may not be flowing smoothly,

but I believe, everything will turn out fine.

ex-tudyante.

Naalala ko nung nagaaral pa ko. Laging busy. Lagi akong wala sa bahay. Late na natutulog dahil sa dami ng dapat gawin. Minsan ndi na nga ko kumakain. Wala lang. Kinukumpara ko lang yung buhay ko ngayong graduate na ko sa buhay ko nung nagaaral pa ko. Ang laki ng pinagkaiba. Ang laki ng pinagbago. Kung dati'y 6am ang gising ko, ngayon, 6am na ang tulog ko. Kung dati'y halos lunch na lang kinakain ko, ngayon kumpleto na, breakfast..snack..lunch..snack..dinner..snack.. Kung dati'y may araw-araw akong allowance, ngayon? ASA PA KO! Malupit ang buhay graduate. Wahaha! Sa mga graduate na tulad ko, siguro naiisip nyo rin ang mga naiisip ko. Masaya na malungkot na nakakatawa na nakakasawa ang buhay estudyante. Di ba? Noon...Araw-araw natin nakikita mga friends natin. May allowance/kickbacks tayo. Assignment/projects/casestudy/research/revalida.Out-of-town na duties. Nakakaaning na profs/CI. Baha. Foodcourt. Mga iba't-ibang uri ng estudyante na kumukumpleto sa sirkulasyon ng buong eskwelahan. Iba satin, maituturing na dakilang estudyante talaga. Yung gustong-gusto talaga ng salitang 'study'. Yung tipong papasok palang yung prof sa classroom, magre-raise na agad ng hand para magrecite. Yun ang mga tipo ng estudyante na studious at epal. Meron naman napasok lang para makipagdate. Sila ang mga cant-live-w/o-my-bf/gf-type., in short malandi. Iba, pumasok lang para magdota. Iba naman, pumapasok lang para ipakita at ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na " Hello!!! May tatlong kilong make-up ako sa mukha ko!!! Pansin nyo ba?!?!" Yung iba, pumapasok lang para masabing estudyante sila. Mema lang. Hay. Pero kung tututuusin, kakamiss ang buhay estudyante. Yung tsansa na maraming natutunan at nalalaman na bago. Ito naman talaga ang bukod tanging layunin ng pagiging estudyante- ang matuto. Depende sayo kung ano gusto mo matutunan. Gusto mo ba matutong magdrawing? Mag-Fine arts ka. Gusto mo ba magpatayo ng buildings? Mag-Engineering or Architecture ka. Gusto mo ba ma-master ang Vital Signs? Mag-Nursing ka. Kanya-kanyang hilig lang yan. Kanya-kanyang gusto. Ika nga sa ingles, "passion". Pero kung iisipin natin, hindi kelangan pang maging estudyante upang matuto. Sa simpleng paguusap lang ng dalawang magkaibigan ay maaari na silang matuto sa isa't-isa. Sa simpleng karanasan, marami na tayong matutunan. Sabi nga, pag labas mo ng bahay nyo, dapat "empty the cup so that additional water won't spill off". English yun. Wala lang. Sa History nga madami tayong Philosophers at Genius na natuto kahit hindi nag-aral sa eskwelahan. Take note ha, mga genius sila! (Hindi ko sinasabing okay lang hindi mag-aral ha!) Hindi naman porke hindi ka nakauniporme pang eskwelahan o hindi ka nagbabayad ng tinatawag nating tuition fee o wala kang ginagawang assignments/thesis/research, e hindi ka na pwedeng tawagin na estudyante. Lahat tayo ay estudyate sa kahit na anong paraan, sa kahit na anong aspeto.

Oh, well.. sa blog na to, gusto ko lang ikumbinsi ang sarili ko na my learning didn't end last April 24, 2009. Dapat pa kong maging masigasig upang matuto. Madami pang mga bagay ang dapat kong malaman- sa buhay, sa pag-ibig, sa Diyos, sa mundo, sa buong universe. Gusto ko pa malaman kung bakit pangit ang lasa ng grass jelly..kung bakit boxing ring ang tawag sa boxing ring, e square naman sya.. etc..marami pa kong tanong na wala pang sagot. Marami pa kong gustong imbentuhin. Phone charger na solar..Contrast Dye na pwede sa mga taong allergic sa seafoods..At gusto ko magpatayo ng ospital sa gitna ng dagat at sa outer space.. Para magawa ko to, kelangan ko malaman kung pano.. at kung bakit.. Dahil ba gusto ko talagang makatulong o nag-aadik lang talaga ako. Basta, gusto ko pa matuto. Marami pang mga impormasyon, ideya at teorya ang naghihintay sakin. At hinihintay ko rin. Ayokong tawagin na ex-tudyante. Gusto ko maging estudyante fo'evah..

Best and Worst Feelings in the World

Na-inspire akong gumawa ng blog about one of the the best and worst feelings in the world aside from being loved, encountering God, magkaroon ng kaaway etc.. Simple things lang ang mga dahilan ng mga andito sa list ko. Pero nakakatawa kasi ang laki ng effect.

BEST FEELINGS:

1. kumain ng chocolate, ice cream, cake and/or bananacue habang nag-i-internet.
2. gawing soup ang gravy sa kfc.
3. magpapawis sabay tapat sa aircon o electric fan.
4. feeling ng after jumerbs.
5. humatching.
6. umutot ng may tunog.
7. magburp ng sunod-sunod.
8. ngitian ng crush.
9. maglaro ng Mafia Wars.
10. laruin sa bibig ang sago ng Zagu.
11. amuyin ang rugby, acetone, nailpolish, pintura, dyaryo, lumang libro at bagong barnis na kahoy.
12. magpamasahe.
13. mangagat.
14. magpakamot sa likod.
15. kumain ng tatlong Lucky Me Pancit Canton w/ soft-boiled egg at wag mamigay.
16. magpa-pedicure at manicure.
17. feeling ng bagong gupit na buhok.
18. magshopping.
19. magtoothbrush.
20. paputukin yung bilog-bilog sa case plastic ba tawag dun???

WORST FEELINGS:

1.mawalan ng gamit.
2. nasa lrt ka at hindi ka nakababa sa estasyong dapat mong babaan dahil islaman ang mga tao.
3. nasa jeep ka at yung katabi mong ale/mama ay tulog at halos gawin ka ng kama sa pagkakasandal sayo.
4. marinig ang tunog ng bakal na nag-i-slide sa sementadong kalsada.
5. umakyat sa mataas na hagdanan gaya nung sa LRT.
6. feeling ng nakasakay sa elevator mula ground floor hanggang sa 20+ floor.
7. feeling ng sinisinok.
8. makaamoy ng utot.
9. kumain ng pechay.
10. maitama ang balakang sa corner ng table.
11. lumusong sa baha.
12. matama ang pinky toe sa kahit na anong matigas na bagay.
13. tumae ka at malamang hindi maflush ang bowl.
14. mawalan ng tubig habang nagsha-shampoo.
15. makaapak ng tae.
16. magjoke sabay walang nag-react o tumawa.


So there..

Move.

Its another ordinary day for me. I woke up very late, had hotsilog for my brunch and watched my grandma's favorite LALOLA. Now, I am planning to do nothing. *SO BUM* Actually, I really wanna do DVD Marathon but I promised to myself last night that I'll be starting to read my nursing books. I rarely open them since our graduation day! I was talking to my brother's girlfriend last week and she opened up a topic about TB. So there, she told me that she had TB when she was still a child. I freezed. Nah! I forgot the term for childhood TB! WTH! It's just a simple term that every Nursing grad should know. I had to open my book to look for the term which is Primary Complex. I felt so dumb that moment. So last night, I was reviewing the things I've done in the passed 3 months. Were they productive? Were they worth of my time? Or did I just waste my 3 months doing nothing!? Hmm.. I had my Red Cross Training for a month. I had my Call Center Training but I didn't finish the course because my parents didn't want me to continue it. What else did I do? Oh, yeah.. I was busy with the Freshmen Night, went to EAC to invite freshmen but unfortunately, no one of them came. Honestly, I was sad but I wasn't disappointed at all. I won't say that "Atleast, I've poured out all my time and efforts. Ndi ko na kasalanan na walang pumunta." Maybe, it's not yet the right time. :D I've been a slave in my own house. Haha! I do almost all the chores. I do the cleaning, cooking and dishwashing. But the interesting part is I already know how to cook adobo! Yebah! There was a day wherein we had adobong sitaw for lunch and adobong baboy for dinner. Haha! I just love cooking adobo and surprisingly, my family loves my adobo! Yesterday, I cooked Ampalaya with Egg for breakfast and it was overcooked. Tsk. I blame the Mafia Wars for that! I also cooked Pinakbet for the first time and my grandma told me it was really palatable to the taste. I really had no plans of learning how to cook . But right now, it's like I wanna learn how to cook every food that I taste and every delicacies that I see in the television.. Hahah! The ability to cook is really in the Reyes' Blood. *Ilocano eh!* Haha! Anyway, so much for the cooking and food thing.. Hehe. What else have I achieved? Oh, yes..I'm done with my one2one with Dax. Yihee! Labit! Everytime we meet, I really get inspired. My one2one session with her made me more zealous to God!

While I was thinking how to end this blog, I realized that there were lots of good things that has happened in the passed 3 months and lots of lessons to be learned! I may felt bum sometimes but I will not stay bum forever. Haha. Move. Move. Move!


THE END.

lost and found

I found myself alone in my room.

kneeling down.

crying.

praying.

Every fabric of my soul is yearning.

for truth.

for hope.

for love.

I will keep on seeking You.

Only You.

Must Read!

I was browsing the internet to look for short stories to read and I found these beautiful stories! Hope they'll inspire you too!

• The Cost of Hope
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She is..

..my latest addiction. Harharhar....