Amazing Love.

One day, I woke early in the morning to watch the sunrise. Ah, the beauty of God's creation is beyond description. As I watched, I praised God for His beautiful work. As I sat there, I felt the Lord's presence with me.

He asked me, "Do you love me?"

I answered, "Of course, God! You are my Lord and Saviour!"

Then He asked, "If you were physically handicapped, would you still love me?"

I was perplexed. I looked down upon my arms, legs and the rest of my body and wondered how many things I wouldn't be able to do -- the things that I took for granted? (confused)

And I answered, "It would be tough Lord, but I would still love You."

Then the Lord said, "If you were blind, would you still love my creation?"

How could I love something without being able to see it? Then I thought of all the blind people in the world and how many of them still loved God and His creation.

So I answered, "Its hard to think of it Confused , but I would still love you."

The Lord then asked me, "If you were deaf, would you still listen to my word?"

How could I listen to anything being deaf?

Then I understood. Listening to God's Word is not merely using our ears, but our hearts.

I answered, "It would be tough (confused), but I would still listen to Your word."

The Lord then asked, "If you were mute, would you still praise My Name?"

How could I praise without a voice? Then it occurred to me: God wants us to sing from our very heart and soul. It never matters what we sound like. And praising God is not always with a song, but when we are persecuted, we give God praise with our words of thanks.

So I answered, "Though I could not physically sing, I would still praise Your Name."

And the Lord asked, "Do you really love Me?"

With courage and a strong conviction, I answered boldly, "Yes Lord! I love You because You are the one and true God!"

I thought I had answered well, but God asked, "THEN WHY DO YOU SiN?"

I answered, "Because I am only human. I am not perfect."

"THEN WHY iN TiMES OF PEACE DO YOU STRAY THE FURTHEST? WHY ONLY iN TiMES OF TROUBLE DO YOU PRAY iN EARNEST?"

No answers -- only tears.

The Lord continued: "Why only sing at fellowships and retreats? Why seek Me only in times of worship? Why ask things so selfishly? Why ask things so unfaithfully?"

The tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

"Why are you ashamed of Me? Why are you not spreading the good news? Why in
times of persecution, you cry to others when I offer My shoulder to cry on? Why make excuses when I give you opportunities to serve in My Name?"

I tried to answer, but there was no answer to give.

"You are blessed with life. I made you not to throw this gift away. I have blessed you with talents to serve Me, but you continue to turn away. I have revealed My Word to you, but you do not gain in knowledge. I have spoken to you but your ears were closed. I have shown
My blessings to you, but your eyes were turned away. I have sent you servants, but you sat idly by as they were pushed away. I have heard your prayers and I have answered them all.

"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME ?"

I could not answer. How could I? I was embarrassed beyond belief. I had no excuse. What could I say to this? My heart had cried out and the tears had flowed, I said, "Please forgive me Lord. I am unworthy to be Your child."

The Lord answered, " That is My Grace, My child."

I asked, " Then why do you continue to forgive me? Why do You love me so?"


The Lord answered, "Because you are My creation. You are my child. I will never abandon you. When you cry, I will have compassion and cry with you. When you shout with joy, I will laugh with you. When you are down, I will encourage you. When you fall, I will raise you up. When you are tired, I will carry you. I will be with you till the end of days, and I will love you forever."

Never had I cried so hard before. How could I have been so cold? How could I have hurt God as I had done?

I asked God, "How much do You love me?"


The Lord stretched out His arms, and I saw His nail-pierced hands. I bowed down at the feet of Christ, my Saviour. And for the first time, I truly prayed.

Hebrews 13:5 (GNB) "Keep your lives free from the love of money, and be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, 'I will never leave you; I will never abandon you'."

SOURCE: http://hanniyokota.multiply.com/journal/item/33/amazing_love

Nasaan Ka Kabataan?

Hapon ng Linggo. Umiihi ako sa banyo nang marinig ko sa telebisyon na may Cory Aquino Special Tribute daw ang The Buzz. Ganun kalakas ang volume ng telebisyon namin ng hapon na iyon, abot hanggang banyo. Ganun na lang din ang excitement ko na mapanood ang nasabing tribute. Hindi ako pro-cory at lalo namang hindi rin ako anti-cory. Sakto lang. Nung nalaman ko ngang pumanaw na sya ay hindi ako umiyak gaya ng iba. Nalungkot, oo. Pero umiyak, nunca. Dahil siguro nung mga panahong nagaganap ang edsa 1 ay sperm palang ako sa katawan ng tatay ko. Wala akong ideya sa buong detalye ng sinasabing edsa 1. Ang alam ko lang, ginanap yun noong February 25. Yun lang

Hindi ko napanood ang Necrological Service para kay Pres.Cory. Kahit nung huling misa na inalay sakanya, pati yung paghatid sakanya sa sementeryo na balita ko’y di mahulugang karayom daw sa dami ng tao, lahat yun, hindi ko napanood. Kaya naman sabik at may halong kuryosidad akong masaksihan ang tribute na ginawa ng The Buzz. Si Kuh Ledesma muna, umawit sya ng opening song at hindi ko alam ang title. Lumabas si Boy Abunda na napansin kong bitin ang pantalon at walang medyas kasama si Ruffa Gutierrez na bongga ang outfit. Ayan na, introduction na. Hindi ko alam kung bakit excited akong mapanood yung tribute na yun. Hanggang sa dumaan ang ilang minuto, ilang patalastas, ilang interviews sa mga malalapit na tao sa buhay ni Pres. Cory, at napansin ko na lang na nangingilid na pala ang luha sa aking mga mata. Luha ng awa? Hindi. Luha ng pakikidalamhati? Hindi. Luha dahil napuwing lang ako? Lalong hindi. Madami akong nalaman at narealize. Iba pala talaga yung nagawa ni Mrs.Cory para sa ating bansa. Exceptional. Amazing. Awesome. Kala ko, naging presidente lang sya. Yun lang. Pero hanep yung ginawa nya. Sya pala ang bonggang-bonggang nagbalik ng demokrasya sa ating bansa. Sya ang matapang na nagbuklod sa bawat Pilipino upang malabanan ang pamamahalang diktatorya. Sya pala ang dahilan ng kalayaan natin ngayon. (Palakpakan!!!) Oo, napagaralan ko to nung nasa elementarya pa lamang ako pero parang ngayon lang na-absorb sa pagkatao ko. Astig talaga.. Imagine, sya ang dahilan kung bakit may karapatan na tayong ipaglaban kung ano ang sa tingin natin ang tama..kung bakit may freedom of the press..kung bakit nakakagala pa rin ang mga kabataan ng hanggang hating-gabi kahit may bagansya na.. (Tsk..Pasaway..) At ngayong nabanggit ko na ang kabataan, at talagang nahirapan akong mag-isip kung pano ko i-se-segue ang salitang kabataan, eto ang tanong: hindi ba kelangan nating magpasalamat sa mga taong lumaban na kahit isipin man nating cheesy at corny, lumaban sila para sa bayan..para sa hinaharap..at nakaka-touch kasi kabilang tayo sa hinaharap na pinaglaban nila. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam diba? Ineenjoy natin ang kalayaang hindi natin pinaghirapan. Pero hanggang ganun na lang ba tayo? Puro sarap na lang ba? Puro enjoy-enjoy na lang? Hindi ba responsibilidad din nating ipagpatuloy ang pakikibaka? Mananatili ba tayong makasarili? Di ba tayo nga ang tinuring na pag-asa ng bayan?

Pero anong ginagawa natin ngayon?
Sino na tayo ngayon?
Ano na tayo ngayon?

Hindi ko alam pero saka ko narealize na malaki ang papel ng bawat kabataan sa kinabukasan ng ating bansa. Malaki ang magiging responsibilidad ng bawat kabataan ngayon sa mga kabataan sa susunod na heneresyon. Sasayangin na lang ba natin ang pinaghirapang pakikibaka ng mga tao nung edsa 1 upang makamit ang kalayaan? Ang hirap..pawis..mga pangarap na isina-alang-alang..mga taong nagbuwis ng buhay..at ang demokrasyang tinatamasa natin ngayon, masasayang na lang ba? Mapupunta na lang ba sa wala?

Naririnig ko na ang luha at hinagpis ng hinaharap. Kung mananatili tayong ganito, ang auditory hallucination kong ito ay malamang magkatotoo.

Nasan ka? Nasan kang inaasahan ng bansa? Nasan kang pagasa ng ating abang bayan? Nasan ka kabataan?

PS. Wala akong balak sumali sa ano mang grupo, alyansa o rally at hayaang mabasa ng tubig-bumbero o masugatan ng mga bakal na shield ng mga pulis.. In our own little ways, we can change our country. We can change the world. Just be responsible enough to take the responsibility. (Ano raw?) Haha. Just get up ang get movin’.. Sabi nga ng pinakasikat na si Anonymous, “Action springs not from thought, but from readiness for responsibility." Share ko lang.

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